Month: February 2013

  • Smiley

    I've been in so many meetings recently, I come home feeling absolutely brain damaged.
    My head was pounding last night. 
    But my friend left a smiley on my hand.
    He said, if I get sad, the smiley would make me smile.
    And if I get really sad, I can stretch my hand to make a fatter smiley, which would make me smile even more.
    The smiley didn't wash off. 
    It kept me smiling this morning. 
    I looked at my hand while driving into work.
    It was a funny sight.

  • What Keep Me Up At Night

    • PUYO HST Tax Remittance issue, potentially a $40k cash outflow which will wipe out PUYO's cash reserve.
    • Still in a limbo. I have no idea where I'd be in 6 months. The idea of staying put is scary. It could mean status quo.
    • I am moving too slow. I need to work on multiple leads to get me to where I want to get to.
    A good friend said to me, "Ling, one brick at a time. Don't get too caught up with the wall right now."

  • Reversing Stagnation Means Making Myself Uncomfortable

    For the last week or so, I felt stagnant.

    I ran through a list of things I'm working on right now. 
    I put them under three general lists:
    1. I do them because they will help me get to my end goal eventually.
    2. I do them because I love what I do. i.e. PUYO
    3. I do them because they are part of my responsibilities.
    The fact that I feel stagnant means that nothing I'm doing right now is providing the right mental stimulus. 
    So I'm going to do something about it.
    I'm going to force myself to do something new. I have three things in mind that I could start to make me feel alive again.
    I intend to pick up only one of the three because I don't have the capacity to do more. 
    But, picking up something new would require me to deprioritize something from list 3, which essentially means, not giving my 100%. This will bug me.
    So I asked myself, am I comfortable with being uncomfortable?
    To help me get to my answer, I reminded myself of my end goal.
    If things on list 3 aren't helping me achieve my end goal, regardless of how uncomfortable I am about not giving my 100%, I need to let go.
    I intend to reverse my state of stagnation. The process will irk me because it involves consciously not doing my best. But checking everything I do against my end goal assures me that I am making the right decision.
    Therefore I'm going to do it.
    Right away.

  • My Friend Is Very Mature

    Friend looked at my roommate's shoe rack.

    Friend: "Your roommate hasn't worn this pair of shoes for at least a month."

    Me: "She hasn't been home for a month."
    Friend: "Yes I know. Because I tied her two shoes together. The shoelaces are still in tact."
    Me: .......
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    Same friend.
    Friend: "Do you have an extra laptop?"
    Me: "Yes. It's my work laptop. Don't do anything stupid."
    The next day, while I was battling regression, I see a "Surprize!" folder on my desktop.
    Totally not suitable for work.
    My friend is very mature.
    But I admit, I'm not having a great night with regression. He made me laugh.