March 29, 2013

  • Acceptance

    Whenever something bad happens. I always tell myself, "things could always be worse." 
    And I look at how good my life is relative to other people, I genuinely believe in that.
    The last four months felt long. I felt I cramped a full year into four months. 
    Friends getting cancer. Family passing away. Changes at work.
    The one sentiment I walk away with is ironically, acceptance.

    I don't think life is particularly unfair. Life is simply different.

    To my friends fighting their fates, keep your infectious positivity.

    To myself, there are a couple of things I don't want to forget:

    My last memory of Mommy reminds me that I should always take accountability for my actions. Whatever plight I'm caught in, it's likely a result of my own action at one point in time. Therefore, I should come to grips with the circumstance and understand that whatever that's happening is happening because of me, not because of anyone else.

    Second, I tell myself: at one point, everyone loses their loved ones. It's a big deal, but it's also a part of life. Accept it. Many people in this world are going through greater pains.

    Finally, I might die tomorrow. No one's to say I will live until I'm 80. That's a gift, not a right. But I should live my life in such a way that if I were to shut my eyes for good tomorrow, I'd leave smiling knowing that I made the most out of my life and that I've been a relatively good person despite my imperfections. 

    That said, last post of melancholy, I promise.

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    I did a quick trip back to Taiwan for the funeral and I got to see my cousins! I haven't seen my Japanese cousin for over 10 years! He has two kids so I'm officially an aunt! Woot!

     

    4 cousins, 3 countries.

    My cousin's new lock screen, my work of art!